Thailand

Okay So first off I just have to say that.... I am so sorry that I have not blogged sooner. I am safe n sound in Thailand. Currently I am in Chang Mai. I absolutely love it here. I love the culture and I can really see how God is moving. The last 2 1/2 weeks were spent at a place called Home of Blessing where they save girls from being sold into Sex trafficking. We lead bible studies, got up at 5:30 am everyday and had prayer, taught English at a Buddhist school, put on a VBS and built relationships with the girls. Its really sad in this culture because when you tell a girl she is beautiful she doesnt accept because  they are not told that they are beautiful or how much they are worth so the VBS was spent teaching them that they are loved, they are beautiful and the all have destinies and dreams that only they can be filled. It was such a great couple weeks and I know that I have left some of my heart with them. We are now currently in Chang Mai where we will be doing a lot of street ministry and helping at the church that we are staying at. Today I taught children's church! It was sooo very much fun! God is moving in mighty ways. The Thai people are very open about hearing about God's love. They are hungry for it. Please be in prayer for rest within our team and pray that the Lord opens up doors so that we can serve Him where He wants us to be. I am doing well other than a few minor issues of my stomach hurting or headaches I have been fine. I did pull my back out while doing some heavy lifting but the Lord has healed me and my back fills great now.
I love you guys!
Tiff
PS Absolutely love Thai food and I used a fork today for the first time in like 2 weeks and it was such an awkward thing to do! Hahahah and Mom would be so proud I can use a squatty potty without complaining! LOL

2 days until Thailand

So what can I say it's been 12 weeks since I have gotten here and I still can't believe it. In 2 days  I will be embarking on my next journey to Thailand. I seriously cannot wait to get the next adventure started. These past 12 weeks have been filled with lectures that have completely changed my life. I have been refined and am still being refined day by day. I have made some beautiful and amazing friends that will last a lifetime. I have cried a lot... like everyday. I have seen healings go on in my friends. I have seen healing and restoration come out of my life. I have scrubbed toilets while I literally was on download from Jesus. I have been crazy homesick yet completely at peace. I have given every piece of me to Jesus. Even the darkest cells that I have kept hidden from everyone I have given to him. I have never been so free in my life and so in love with my Maker. Thank you to everyone that has supported me while I have been here. It has completely changed my life, and I am on to the next phase where I get to share my breakthrough with others!!! I'm ready to make my own stories, to be apart of God's greater plan, to change things. It's going to be great and I am so anxious excited to see what the Lord has for me next. This next couple months will not be wasted.... I still have much to learn. In a couple days my DTS family will be split up going to 3 different countries: Thailand, Africa, and India. It is going to be so good. Please keep us in your prayers. I will try to as much as possible to blog but we will have limited internet while we are there. Pray for guidance. Pray that God will show us strategies to reach all the people. Pray for safe travels and no sickness, and that people will not feel homesick during the holidays. I know for me I am feeling sad already that I will not get to be with my family whom I love dearly for Christmas. This will be the first Christmas that I miss with my family. You know the cost for salvation is great, but its worth it. I would definitely have not said that a couple months ago, but just running after what God has for you is completely worth everything I gave away to be here. Even if I don't get to see one of my best friends get married, even if I don't get to see my nephew's first walking steps, or be with my family for Christmas. I would miss it 100 times just to be here again today, because God is so good and I don't think I would be where I am today if I hadn't come to DTS.  I have been reading in Job lately and its amazing to me how great a man of integrity Job is. The fact that he lost literally everything and didn't curse or blame God even when all of his friends told him too. I want to have a friendship and the fear of the Lord like Job had. If I did then I would be afraid of anything hahah. Well... I have to get back to packing but I pray that God blesses you as much as He has been blessing me. I love you all!
God Bless,
Tiffany
PS IT SNOWED IN ENGLAND!!!! It was beautiful but.... I CANT WAIT FOR THE WARMTH OF THAILAND!!! Yep I am a Texas girl and the sun is my best friend!!

PS Talk to you when I get to Thailand!!

13 days until Thailand!

What I was going to say at the end of this before the internet drop was I love you guys! I love my family too! I have not forgotten you... and Cheers! :) 

Sorry there are 2 videos but the internet was spazzing out!!! Love you guys! I'll post again when the internet is better. :)

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A little update from England!!

OKay so I actually quoted the wrong scripture for what I was talking about. Philippians 2 is having the attitude of Christ but ask and it shall be given you is Luke 11:9. hahhahha ooops

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I'm actually leaving!!

    I'm doing it! I'm actually going. I never thought that this day would come honestly. The day that I leave my mom standing in the airport and letting me embark on such an insanely awesome mission. Who knows what the Lord is going to do in the next 6 months. I am such a goer such a doer. I never want to be still but this last month God has completely taught me just how to be still in His presence. Through this time being home God has shown me that being busy is not always the greatest. I have talked/ministered to so many people just because I was being still! I actually enjoy being still now! YAY GOD!
    I have been hit with so many emotions this past week. I mean honestly I'm not scared at all, I'm just nervous. Nervous about how much I'm going to change and how much others are going to change while I'm gone. I don't know how to explain how I feel. Hmmmm... I guess it's like skydiving. Your standing in the plane knowing that your about to risk your life just for an adventure. You are so nervous because its risking your life but  at the same you're so excited because you know it's going to be a life-changing experience. I know that going to YWAM and giving up 6 months of my life for the Lord will completely change my life and I will never be the same. I know that He is going to completely rip everything that I know of myself out (which is going to be painful) and put everything that He wants me to be back in. It's kind of terrifying. bahahha But it's a complete adventure and I'm ready to risk my life for it.
    With all the said, I did make it through goodbyes. (Even though I didn't think I would.) I didn't know if I was going to make it from all the sweet I'm proud of you's to the I love you's to the threats of what people would do to me if I didn't go home. lol It definitely has been interesting. I still need $3,406.00 hahahh When I say it I even think OMG! How is God going to do this! But He will. I know he's called me to be going and I know that he will provide a way! Soooo I guess that's it for now. I will be shouting back at you when I get to London!!
Giving it all away for Love,
Tiffany

Matthew 28:19-20 - Go into all the nations preaching the gospel baptizing them in the name of the Father Son and Holy Ghost!!

3 Days.

6 more days!!!

Life just doesn't get anymore interesting that is for sure. God keeps on whacking me with very interesting situations where I can learn to be more selfless. As I am constantly giving everything I can away I am still left with Him saying to me how can you give up more? I am completely willing to give anything more away that I can and instead of typing the rest to you I have decided to start Vlogging!! Hahah

11 Days.

     So guys I just have to say Wow.... It's been quite a journey from deciding to leave everything behind and to just go. First off I have to say that I honestly thought I probably wasn't going to get to go to London because my visa just wasn't going through. But I got it in the mail to day and I will be leaving in 11 days. I still have to book my flight and I am still trusting that the Lord will provide all of the money that I need. I've learned so much since I have been back from Africa. I had been constantly asking the Father why I had to come back to the US instead of going straight to London and He finally told me. So last week I decided to go to life group got a ride from one of my friends and went. After life group we usually all go somewhere like yogurt story, crave or somewhere like Ihop or Whataburger and that night it was Whataburger. After we got done eating we piled in the back of one of the guys' trucks and started singing worship songs. As we sang a woman walked up and started smoking a cigarette, as we finished the song the lady said as she was crying, thank you that she really needed to hear that song and walked in side. God told me to go and talk to her and so I did.  I walked inside and asked her if she was okay and if she needed to talk about anything. She began venting everything that has happened in the last 10 years of her life including having gone to prison and had been in an abusive relationship for 6 years of  her life. She currently had just left her husband right after because he had beaten her tonight. She continued to tell me that she felt like she had done too much to ever feel like she deserved to be loved by the Father. And as I ministered to her and prayed for her. Her whole countenance changed, it was as if a burden had been lifted off and she was a completely different person. When she left I gave her a hug and told I would be praying for her. She thanked me greatly for taking the time to talk to her, and as I walked away I felt like the Lord said, "This is why. This is why you had to come home."
        It amazes me to think that the God of the universe would take someone who was across the world and bring them back for a couple weeks for 1 person. How great is the Father's love for us. It just blessed my heart to think that if my God did that for someone else how much more would my God do for me and for others.
        I know that money is just money. That no matter what happens He will always take care of me. I will never be without food. I will never be without anything that I need  because God will always provide. I don't have to worry or stress because God is a good Father and He will always take care of me.

Africa!!!!

I'm sad to have to say that Im on my journey back home. I loved the time I got to spent in Africa. God has used me in many different ways as well as changed me and is changing me daily. I'm sorry to all those that have been waiting for a new blog. I haven't been anywhere that had much internet service. I have so much to tell you so here it goes…. When I left 2 weeks ago I had no idea what this journey was going to withhold. When I stepped on that plane I had no clue all the ways the Lord was going to bless me/change me. When I sat down in my seat, I was instantly a little upset that I would have to spend the first 8 hours sitting next to a complete stranger, but God had a plan. As I began talking to this sweet lady she began to tell me all about how excited she was that I was going to Africa and how awesome it would be. I shared how I was going to move to London and she told me how much I would love it because she visited there often for work. She asked me why I was moving to London and I told her of everything the Lord had told me to do and how I was giving up everything for Him. I really don't know if she was a Christian or not but I believe me sharing with her about my trip planted a seed in heart. Although I was upset at first that I got stuck by the window "all by myself" we talked a lot and I really feel like she needed that. Just someone who was kind and willing to talk to her and I enjoyed it. 

    When I got to London I was so excited, I could not wait to see what it was like. Since we had a 12 hour layover we got to go out and explore. It was so much fun getting to see all the different people from different countries coming together for the Olympics. It was crowded and we got to see a little bit of the Woman's Marathon Run. I also got to see the London Bridge as well as eat Fish 'n'Chips for lunch. Although I only had a glimpse of what London was like I cannot wait to explore and find out more. :) 

    Then another 8 hour flight we finally made it to our destination, Nairobi, Kenya. After going through customs, getting our visas, and getting everyones luggage for 28 people. We met up with Pastor Chola  who is the pastor that in charge of Count Me In camp here in Kenya and  also a local pastor. God gave Amber and Chris White, my Mission Trip Leaders/Mentors, the vision for Count Me In and Pastor Chola carries it out. It was kind of funny getting to see how different life is there in Kenya. First off when it comes to driving, there is literally no rules. People will walk across the highway or walk right in front of you, there are no lanes, and people stand in the middle of the road and sell stuff. I asked the bus driver if a lot of people get hit and he said yes that it happens all of the time. We then went to the Hostile, ate breakfast, took a shower and a quick nap then was off to Mama Sepora's orphanage.

       I had no idea what the Lord had in store for me this trip. All I knew was that I was walking right smack into his plan for me. We went to schools, orphanages, slums, churches, and the streets. As I looked into these faces there was so many sad stories and hopelessness that went on. How could these people have absolutely nothing and still be extremely happy???? The Lord began to break my heart for these people. In the slums I saw kids that drank out of rivers that were filled with trash and sewage, when I went to the streets I saw kids who may have never ever taken a bath before in there life. (no exaggeration.) How could I be so selfish or how could we be so selfish to complain about how the food doesn't taste good at a restaurant when there's some kids who don't have anything to eat. How do we waste money on those 150 dollar shoes when some kids don't even have shoes on their feet. I know we have all heard this before, but until you see it in reality you don't truly understand. I stood in front of those kids willing to give them everything that I had, and I mean everything. Right now I wish I wasn't back in the US. I wish I was still there; feeding the hungry, clothing the street kids, saving children from getting beaten from the their parents. When I looked into those orphans eyes at Mama Sepora's, I saw hunger not necessarily spiritual hunger but a hunger for love and attention. I can't express how awful it is to leave an orphanage like that after spending time with the kids knowing that you may never see them again. A little bit of my heart was left in every place we walked in Africa. I want to do more I thought constantly as I saw more poverty than my heart could take. 

        Although the first week was filled with just basically pouring out any kind of love you could give, we did get to drive 8 hours into the bush to go on safari. Now, let me break this down for you…. I said 8 hours now that may seem okay if you were going on a road trip in the US but in Africa its off roadin'. After the first 2 hours there was no paved roads anymore. Imagine being crammed when you get carsick in a bus with very uncomfortable seats with 10 people driving down a road with a million potholes for 6 hours while you haven't eaten plus stopping because you got a flat tire…. Ya it was not the funnest experience ever. By the time we got to the Lodge I literally told our leader that if anyone touched me I would punch  them in the face with no remorse hahhahahh.  But we made it and the experience of seeing the animals was incredible. It was amazing to be able to see the glory of God through his creations. We got to see so many cool animals in there natural habitat including zebras, wildebeest, african buffalo, gazelles, ostriches, elephants, and wait for it------- A PRIDE OF LIONS!!!!! Yes we did see a pride of lions which is so rear and they were so active. I have many pictures. It was so amazing!!! Seeing  these animals and dealing with the scary food with mystery meat, beans and rice, who knows else as well as the dirty water coming from the shower I think the 8 hour drive was worth it…..Until the ride back when one of the buses actually broke down and we had to stuff another 5 people into the already overcrowded van. LOL You got to love mission trips. TIA!!! (This is Africa) 

         The 2nd week was all camp which if only I could describe to you all that God did then I would. So many hearts were captured by the blood of Jesus and so many people were redeemed from the chains of their past. I taught a workshop on Purity and Finding your Identity in Christ in which each class was only supposed to have 60 people and on both days I had over that. The Lord moved in crazy ways and we got to pray over so many girls. Its so sad to see how many girls have been raped, beaten, abused,  have dealt with anger, rejection, rebellion and these are just a few things that they asked me to pray for. So many girls came forward just crying out to God to get rid of different things. It was awesome to see the breakthrough during the week as the girls laid these things down and moved forward to their calling and destinies. So many girls there believe they are worthless because of they way they have been mistreated or abused. My heart longs to see these girls completely set free from that and that they would no their worth in Christ. I will be praying for them daily as they have left a mark on my heart. 

       Im sorry the that I didn't leave more details on the last 2 weeks. There was so much that went on that I can't express to you everything that God did. When I left, I left most of my heart in Africa and honestly I don't want to be at home. It's too difficult to literally have everything you need here with so many ungrateful people when there are kids in Africa starving, never had a pair of shoes, or maybe have never even taken a bath before. This is just a tiny glimpse of what I saw and I will never be the same again. I can't wait to leave again!!!

Todays the day!!!

Today is the day, and I am embarking on the beginning of the next series of adventures in my life. Although everything didn't work out exactly how I expected it, I know that God is in control and there is a reason for everything. Right now I am sitting at a Starbucks killing time before I have to go to the airport. I'm all packed, I've said my goodbyes, and I'm ready to go. Because of all of my friends who didn't let me sleep this week I am tired but I'll have 18 hours to sleep on a plane so I'm not worried. I'm feeling very anxious and excited in my spirit. I really have no clue on what is going to happen in the next few weeks, but I do know that its going to be HUGE! The way God has been preparing me for this trip and the way God has moved to allow me to go is overwhelming. I will try to stay in touch as much as possible and keep you updated as best I can whenever I have internet.
I love you all,
Tiffany
2 Timothy 2:4-5: Preach the word of God. Be prepared, whether the time is favorable or not. Patiently correct, rebuke, and encourage your people with good teaching. For the time is coming when the people will no longer listen to sound and wholesome teaching.

3 days.

In 3 days I will be embarking on my great adventure. Everything has fallen into place and everything is going to be taken care of. The Lord has blessed me beyond belief and I cannot wait to see where my life is going to go and how I am going to be changed. Just to catch you up real fast. I've sold my car officially now and have had to get rides to and fro from work.  I have raised over 3000 dollars and still receiving donations. My plane ticket has been changed. Ive started packing and preparing to go. I'm really booked at the salon this week because of all of my wonderful clients wanting to get in before I go. God is just so good and His love is literally overwhelming. Everytime I have said that I need something the Lord provides. This week has been hard though with having to tell different people goodbye and I am not looking forward to all the goodbyes I have to say on Saturday but I know that whatever is going to happen.... It's all going to be worth it. Recently I was watching a  movie called Furious Love. This movie was about all the darkness in the world including witchcraft that goes on. As they began talking about Thailand and the prostitution that goes on there I began to weep. The Lord just completely broke my heart for the people. That's where I want to be. I want to be freeing girls from the sex slave trades and stopping prostitution. At the end of the movie I cried out to the Lord and told him that if He calls me to go and I never get to see my friends and family again then I would do it. All of this is would be worth never seeing my friends and family again or not having a normal life just to be able to save girls from that kind of evil.
     So just found out that although I was supposed to be getting my visa in today there was a problem and I don't know exactly what I need to so plz be praying!
Trusting in the Lord every step of the way,
Tiffany

Time Flies...

So time has definitely flown by and I don't know exactly to where to begin on how great God has been.  It's crazy too think everything that has happened in the last couple weeks. First off I got accepted into the YWAM London DTS program which was very exciting but a little overwhelming with all the things I have to get done and put together before I go. I began last week insanely stressed out to a point of I even had a panic attack which has never happened before. This made me a little upset with myself because I firmly believe that panic attacks are not of the Lord and I was upset with myself because I knew I wasn't trusting in God with my fullest. As the week went on though I began to get the necessary things done like shots, visa stuff, and flight details taking care of. The Zumbathon was this last friday and although there was a dust storm, tornado, and rain we still were able to raise over 400 dollars for my trip which was just incredible. Thank God for all those ones that donated to the event, trainers especially Mrs. Ashley who gave up there time, and all the people who got insanely muddy, sweaty, and gross to come and support me. But the most miraculous thing that the Lord has done in the last 2 weeks is this.....
          So I got a phone call from my trainer at around 9 today telling me that she needed me to come up to the gym and so I went up there not thinking much of it. We are good friends and I just thought she wanted to talk to me about something. As I walked in I see one of the ladies that I met at the Zumbathon who's name is Mrs. Mary sitting with a laptop in her hands. She told me that she had this Macbook Pro sitting around her house and she wanted to give it to me. I was in so much shock that I'm sure all those present might of thought I was a little crazy. And ya she gave me exactly what I asked the Lord for, a macbook pro. Its crazy how God moves and knows exactly what you need and knows exactly how to provide for you. I'm literally just blown completely away about how great God is and am continually having to thank him for everything that he has done!
As I was sharing with my bro about what God did he reminded me of this verse-

Mark 10:29-30 So Jesus answered and said, “Assuredly, I say to you, there is no one who has left house or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or lands, for My sake and the gospel’s, who shall not receive a hundredfold now in this time—houses and brothers and sisters and mothers and children and lands, with persecutions—and in the age to come, eternal life. 



God's blessing me tremendously and thank you to all those that are praying for me. One more thing to be praying for. Please pray that my visa comes in in the next 12 days. I need that before I leave. :) Thank you to all for supporting me and being apart of my life! I can't wait to share everything that the Lord does. :)

23 days....

Crazy how fast time flies isnt it? Who would of thought that in 3 weeks and 2 days I would
be leaving to move to another country. Hmmm... A lot of thoughts have been going through my
head on whats going to happen, who am I going to meet, how different am I going to be when I get home?
It is getting harder to say goodbye to people, but at the same time I know that whatever God has for me is amazing and I just have to wait and see where it takes me. Its amazing how many people are stepping up to help me with preparing to go. I was so blessed today to have someone come into the salon who I didnt even know just to write me a check because she loved my story of what the Lord was telling me to do. Thank you  Lord for blessing me with so many amazing people in my life. In a week we are having a Zumbathon here at my salon. Its amazing how many people are coming who dont even know me but want to help, and it's amazing to see how many people want to help or donate items for it. It's going to be such a blast and we are praying that God just completely blesses all the fundraising and everything. Good news I am selling my car so that brings me closer to my goal of  $7000 but still have a ways to go. Thank you to those who have already given so much of their time and who have donated to me going. I appreciate you so much and I pray that you will be blessed.
I still have tons to do but I have a peace that overwhelms me and I know that I will get everything done before I go. Well I'm done rambling for you guys' sake. I'm still believing that the Lord is going to provide for me a mac laptop before I go. I pray that  you all have an amazing God filled day and that Daddy God shows you something new and exciting.
Love to all and be blessed,
Tiffany
PS If anyone wants to donate hot dogs and hot dog buns for the Zumbathon next friday plz let me know. :)

The way I want my life to be.

 

This is how I want to live my life for Jesus this way. Spoken by one of my good friends, Lisa. :))

Now I want to be wild and crazy. Something I have never been. I want to be radically sold out for God and look the way I want to look. Despite what peoples parents like or what old people say is "defiling my body". I am going to express myself! I respect and care very much about my parents and elders opinions and my best friend's, but I want to be my own person who only cares what my heavenly father thinks. And how He sees me. :) I will wear funny pants, scarves on my dreaded head and have a nose ring if I so please! AND I WILL Love with all myself, care for the hurting broken children of The King. I will spend my life painting, cooking, traveling and loving! I will waste my life for love! And look like a fool doing it if that's what people think it looks like. I will get covered in dirt and filth to hold hungry babies and feed street people. I will love homosexuals and prostitutes and the people too "religious" to talk to either one of those groups of people. I want nothing more than to please my father. And love like He loves me. This is what I want my life to look like. When people look at my life all I want them to see is that I was Jesus with skin on and that I left behind love.

Becoming more Real

Its all becoming way more real to me now. Yesterday I gave a talk to my church asking for their partnership with my ministry. I also had a Kenya meeting after church. Although I have Kenya paid for I still need over 5,000 dollars for my YWAM ministry, but I know God is there and is going to provide. Good news that I can thank God for:
1. A professional camera
2. A video Camera
3. Someone offered to buy my car
4. 4 Zumba instructors are puting on a Zumbathon to raise money for my trip.
I just cant believe God's goodness and how he blesses me. I am leaving in 27 days where my adventure begins. I cannot possibly wait to get to to Africa and go to the slums and love on the Babies in the orphanages. I also get to teach a workshop on purity and finding your identity in Christ with hopefully my best friend in all the world Amy.  It's going to be sooooo AMAZING!!!! Agh!! Thats me freaking out. So much to do so little time! But God just keeps on sending in the money and I just know that everythings going to be amazing. Another blessing. Went to Goodwill today and God totally provided for me 2 new coats and like 4 sweaters because it is cold in London. So if anyone sees this and wants to get rid of all their winter clothes let me know cuz I need them.
Things I need before I go and am seeking the Lords face for-
A new Macbook
Winter Boots
A Converter
Winter clothes
And of course money. hahhah
Please be in prayer with me to get these things and to just be able to realize everything I need to get done and do it! I love you all and thank you for being such a blessing in my life!
Tiffany
PS more to come soon but I have to get my bestie back home so she can go to work! :)

Bittersweet....

How excited I am in what the Lord is going to do in my life the next couple months. The next month my life is going to be filled with so many bittersweet moments. Everyday I will have to say goodbye to another person, tell my story of why I'm going to someone else, or get rid of something else to make money for my trip. I feel like the Lord has been literally wiping me clean and I am emotionally exhausted, but in the end, everything that Daddy God is teaching me will make it all worth it. He's breaking me down and destroying my old self in order for him to rebuild me into exactly what He wants me to be. No longer do I want to live my life for my self. There's no purpose in that but I want to press forward and give everything I have for the one who died for me and changed my life for eternity. My job, my money, my stuff, wont come with me to heaven, but the souls and the people that I reach will and too me that's more than worth the uncomfortable times that are ahead. God doesnt call us to be comfortable and I have been comfortable way too long. I know that Ive said it 100 times but I really dont know what is ahead for me and too my flesh it scares me but in my Spirit I have full peace. This may sound stupid but I keep forgetting that I need 7000 dollars for my trip simply because I know that Daddy God is going to provide! hahahhah(heavenly laugh when I realize what God does) Isnt it wonderful how Daddy God works?? I love it. :)
Tiffany
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Literally giving everything away.

This new life is becoming so much more real to me now. Every day I am faced with something else that I have to take care of before I go or someone else that I have to say goodbye too. Tonight I have to go through all my stuff and see what needs to go. I'm literally getting rid of everything. As I have been focusing on all of this the Lord has reminded me of the story in the bible about the man who wanted to follow Jesus and Jesus said leave everything behind and follow me. That's what I feel like. When I leave, other then friends and family I will have nothing to come back too, no possessions. What exactly is Daddy God preparing me for? I feel exactly like this in my spirit as well that everything that I know and have known is being stripped away and He is making me a new and complete person. I'm anxiously excited to see what the Lord has for me. I'm finding it harder and harder to focus on things that I have to do now like my job and cleaning my room and church obligations. My heart is no longer here anymore. It's already gone.
Keep me in your prayers,
Tiff
PS if you want to donate to my trip you can here.
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Dying to self!

You know dying to self is not easy. Nor is it really that fun either. The Lord has really been stretching me and since I found out that I was moving I've been a little stressed out. Yesterday I decided to make a list of all the things that I have to get done before I leave. There's moving out of my house, giving away my car, quitting my job, and moving all of my stuff is just a few things I have to do. Though I'm excited about going and I have peace that what I am doing is exactly what God wants me to do. I'm constantly reminded of how different my life is going to be. Dont get me wrong, this is an incredible adventure, but there's all those little things like leaving all your friends and family and leaving everything that you "know" behind The Lord is throwing me into everything that I want to be and more, but at the same time I'm scared to know exactly where I will be at the end of these 7 months that I will be away. One of my best friends put it simple like this to just completely be thrown recklessly abandoned into what the Lord's calling me to do. And yes I am being thrown into it and I'm not going to lie I cried today because I was so overwhelmed with everything that the Lord is changing in my life. My heart is changing, the way I look at things are changing, things that I thought were important arent anymore and I really dont know what to do with the way I'm feeling. But today as I was talking to one of my mentors she reminded me that in the hardest times just stare into the eyes of the Father, to see his Heart through his eyes and to not listen to all the other voices that try to seep into my thoughts. Daddy God is going to provide because He is my Provider, and he will show me what exactly I need to do in His timing. So take a breath! Breathe! It's all going to work out! :) How anxious I am to see what the Lord has for me. :)
Blessings,
Tiff